my divorce was made final today and i am a mix of emotions that is probably not being helped by one cheap bottle of wine. ones of failure, relief, exhaustion, sadness, regret but ultimately, hope. i simply married the wrong person and had the right kids. i am so very sorry to put them through this but if i had stayed, what would i have taught them? that a mom sleeping on the couch is the norm? that a silent with a tense undercurrent mom and dad is the ideal? that a mom that cries at night is expected? that a mom that acquires a new and irregular heartbeat is acceptable?
it was bad, i moved on. he didn't. it hurts. but it will get better for him and for me and for them.
we'll be okay. and here we go.
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