Mama Tried

So I'm starting the blog up again.  This may be my 4th or 5th incarnation of it.  I tend to dive right in, get excited about decorating the sidebar and the headers and what not and then after a while I get real tired of hearing myself talk about myself and delete the whole damn thing.  But this time it is different.  This time it is for my kids and so they'll have something to hold on to, just in case.  I've had some health issues over the past few years, mostly due to stress, some due to a really nasty blood pressure medicine and have finally realized as I sneak up to age 40 that life is short and you better make it sweet.  I have never kept baby books for the kids and that is something I'll regret forever.  My Dad threw all of my baby keepsakes out (out of ignorance I'm sure) a while after my parents split so I don't have anything really to document my beginnings, my firsts, etc.  My Mom did what she could but she was a single Mom doing her best and I certainly don't hold it against her.  She spoiled me even though we didn't have much.  She went back to college when I was 7 or so (I think) and focused on school and claims that I raised myself.  She apologizes for that often.  I think I turned out okay despite what she might say.  =)  And here I am, following in her footsteps...single parenting at 39 and absolutely immersed in running my business while it runs me into the ground.  But here's where the path stops.  I'm tired of feeling bad, mentally and physically and I do not want to follow her path.  She worked herself right into a nervous breakdown in '84 and has never fully recovered and I see now (hindsight is 20/20) that I've been doing the same thing.  So as I try and turn my life and health around, I will document my days and the kids days and everything general so the sweet babies can have this documentation.  And although a book with my handwriting and carefully scrapbooked pages would be more aesthetically pleasing, let's face it, this is faster and easier.  So here you go, let's get all up in my bizness.